Probably I thought too much during the past weeks. I think it’s time for me to think less and try to do well in my research and TA.
In some extent, I’m an idealist. During these weeks, I always think of what I should do in the future. I have two role models, whose stories inspire me a lot. The first is Yung Wing. Recently, I read some excerpts in his autobiography "My life in China and America" again. I can totally understand his dream: he hoped that the rising generation of China would also enjoy the same education he had benefited from. Education is indeed a good way to change China. When reading news about China, I always reflect. I could find that Chinese are experiencing a kind of loss, loss of culture and other things that once bound all Chinese people. At that time, I sincerely hope I could use what I have learned and will learn to help my motherland.
Another role model is Chen Yin-que, the greatest historian and professor of professors in 20th century in China. He had studied in six countries, such as Japan, America, Germany, England and so on. He stayed at many famous universities, but he didn’t get any bachelor or doctorate degree. For him, knowledge and research are the most essential thing, far more important than merely degree. He held on to freedom and independence in academic research althrough his life. In fact, he should be the role model of all Chinese intellectuals.
However, as for me, what I have to do now is my research and other work. If I think about too much things like before, I may spend less time on my current work. The dream, "为天地立心，为生民立命，为往圣继绝学，为万世开太平", although impressive, is really too big. I should first enjoy learning, enjoy these five years as PhD student and find fun in study. Less complaining, less fantasy and more enjoying.